I don't know why this has been on my mind so much lately. Maybe because I've been diving deeper into how I want to portray myself, and my work. To be honest, July kicked my ass. The past two years have been a roller coaster of change. I thought I had passed the roughest part, only to be proved oh so wrong. Like the darkest, scariest cloud making one foul swoop. It took me off guard the other day and I couldn't help but think how much I censor myself. I've chose to limit what people see. They get the happy, free-spirited girl. Bright and limitless. And I began to think about how unfair this is. If you want to see who's really down and out in your life, it's in these times that will surely reveal that.
I want to live my life fearless, to love others past the point of being afraid. If it weren't for these times, I'm unsure how I'd view the world in another light. I believe we are made of both darkness and light. Good and bad. Each intrinsically complementing one another. As much as we don't want to be in the dark, it serves a purpose. It deepens our understanding, brings us closer to one another, and for lack of better terms, is completely humbling. I'm not sure if I'd take back all the BS in my life. It's brought me to where I am now. And, I'm starting to really like that place ✨